I came home from work today and napped. The computer's usually my first stop in the afternoon, but today I grabbed a blanket and curled up on the couch. I didn't wake up until Kris got home.
Then I weaseled out of going to the gym. Again.
This has become a disturbing trend, my sudden inability to exercise (coupled with an increase in calorie consumption). January and February went well, my fitness regimen seemed to have taken hold. And the beginning of March included three lovely days on which I was able to ride my bike for extended periods.
The past few weeks, though, have seen me do whatever I can to avoid exercise. And I'm so tired. When I have made it to the gym, I've spent most of my time lifting weights rather than performing aerobic exercise. This is fine, and I had good reasons for concentrating on the weights after the first of March, but the aerobic exercise is what's going to keep me in shape and to help me lose weight.
The weather has been beautiful for the past week, but I haven't been on my bike even once. The mornings have been quite warm, forty degrees and above. I cannot use the cold as an excuse for not riding to work.
I have no excuse, really. My mental stamina has been low, and I've let that affect my fitness. This just leads to a bitter spiral as I become dissatisfied with my health and this depresses me more.
Dane and I had this amusing (to me) exchange via e-mail today:
I'm amazingly nonproductive at home, though, and I think it's driving Kris crazy. It's even bugging me a little. I need to exercise some self-control regarding the internet. The thing is, though, I consider most of the stuff I'm doing on the computer at night relatively productive. This may be the case, but it's not stuff that contributes to the household. I need to do better.
I sort of have this problem, but for different reasons, and it totally drives Dagny nuts.
My problem is one of resource utilization. I have a high-priority thread which involves the "depression" task. The only way to keep it from consuming all system resources all the time is to basically "renice" another process into a higher priority -- this usually involves the "computer stuff" process, with the "comic book", "science fiction", and "rpg" processes other popular choices.
Notice the total lack of "cleaning", "general maintenance", and "practical recordkeeping" processes. :/
Part of the problem here is that not just any process is suitable for taking over as the primary system focus. It has to meet certain criteria and none of the so-called "practical" tasks work.
An example of semi-productive computer work that doesn't actually contribute to the household: I spent several hours last night importing my old weblog entries into Moveable Type. From March of 2001 until January of this year, I dabbled with blogging using Blogger, which is a great tool for somebody who either doesn't have the technical savvy, the system resources, or the motivation to run Moveable Type. (I think Mac, who was looking at Moveable Type, might find Blogger useful.)
The process of importing the old entries shouldn't have taken as long as it did. I'm not sure what I was doing wrong. After of three frustrating hours I managed to get the old entries into the archives, seperated by day. Now I need to create an archive specifically for each year, or perhaps each month, otherwise the archive page will become unwieldy.
Tonight, after I finished my nap and chopped some vegetables for Kris, I upgraded Moveable Type from version 1.4 to version 2.0. The upgrade seems to have gone well, but I won't know for sure until I post this entry.
The clip-art pen in the foldedspace.org masthead was bugging me so I commented it out. Better? Worse? No difference?
On this day at foldedspace.org
2004 — Geek Yard Sale Come to the Rather Large Yard Sale at Joel and Aimee's this weekend (3374 SE 16th, near the Aladdin Theater)! Peruse our collection of geeky stuff! Computer parts! Books (all sorts)! Games! Comics! Furniture! Star Trek stuff! Art! More books!
— Microfiction I am making progress as a writer. I force myself to be observant. I write daily. I've learned to revise. I'm aware of every little error. I wince when publishing a hurried weblog entry.
2003 — Crouching Tiger [part one] In which I sing the praises of Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, and begin to tell the story of how Shu Lien and Li Mu Bai met.