Jethro's World

I know I'm supposed to be excited about tomorrow, but right now I feel more trepidation than elation.

I am a control freak... and so much of what happens in the next few days will be out of my control. I am nervous, excited, and terrified all at the same time. I just don't feel like I am ready for tomorrow, but I know when our new little bundle arrives, I will be ready... it just happens that way. I try to remember how I felt when Noah was born -- the great joy of witnessing the miracle of new life -- but I am still uneasy.

With Arms Wide Open, a song written by Scott Stapp of the band Creed, conveys how I feel now, and how I felt with Noah...

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I closed my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, I'll take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open

If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope (s)he's not like me
I hope (s)he understands
That (s)he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And (s)he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

And so, I release all control of the situation and put my trust in the the Lord... it's all I can do.